Back on track

Salam...

I'm back on track..selepas beberapa bulan busy dengan errand yg patut sangat di busykan...hehe
shall be new story ahead, cuz bit different and will be newlife for me...

will missing the past lives so much...should address the memories with happy conclusions..

anyway, aku bersyukur dengan apa yang aku lalui selama nih, ok..  :))

and masa untuk blog walking akan bermula bila-bila masa saje dari sekarang... *withLuv

Sakit Kepala sangat...weh

Hmm...Assalamua'laikum.....

Adoi, hari ni kerja aku melampau banyak..ala indeed, mcm biasa la gak...cuma probably da terlalu lama aku experienced mende nih...

Lastweek Boss aku outstation (Philipines la..) cuz ade function la kat sane..bkn dgn family tau..tp utk kerja la.. So, as usual,

Hello...? Salam....

Ish...lama sangat tak update blog nih..
Hehe, almaklum..lappy takder...plus intenet takder..serba takderla..

and now, Boss bagi saya bawa balik lappy yang dia purchase khas untuk saya buat paperworks.. 'Just bring it home, and use it as your personal way..'
aha...?? dlm otak saya da fikir macam2...

Merapu lagi boleh..??

Hishh...lama btol sy x buat update blog nih...
tapi, bkn ada org baca pun... ahaks..

anyway..this few days, sy terasa rindu yang amat plak pada someone..
ishh, for real...??? indeed, tak buleh la... but as usual..sy bukan jenis bagitau da pon..
yup, since the case...am not happy to show myfeeling anymore to anyone..even to him..

Kenyataan Perasaan² 0r Hati²..

Buat pertama kali update blog dalam opis waktu keje..

Ish keje gler plus mongok yg sy buat arini..huhuhu...
2, 3 hari can't get through d call & sms...what d days..?
sy tak tau ape sy pikir... dengan keje yg menimbun & chessy yg kuar masuk service centre (bkn utk service, tp utk tukar spare part...huh)...plus hmm...takmo ckp cni..

Chit Chat panjang sikit yg nonsense kot..

semuanya berlaku sekejap jer...

yup...saya bahagia, sekejap...? heh..ok pe..even sekejap,..at least saya dpt bertahan ngan ape yg buat saya trauma..

Kerja Gila Si Poyo Kenit

rasanya emo absolutely unstable...cuz soul & nafas was inside bekas kaca with the sign of "DON'T DARE TO TOUCH" it's seal!!

Dua Tahun Berlalu

Hari ni, saya keje halfday...Saturday, rite.. ;)

Lepas having lunch wif Him at Giant Kinrara, tired gler...yela..td kat 0pis saya bz ngan new pr0ject launched..plus OVR nk kene calculate; issue 0ut. Anyway, that's all myresp0nsibilities..tak buleh nak merungut weh...(niat kene bt0l, bru berkat)

Then trus balek la...mlm ni ade nextplan t0 watch Manchester United game @ mamak (kedai tambi) wif Him als0 (saya mane de 0rg lain pe...)

My All, My Self

me..?

knew, most of d time anyone can fall O' missunderstand O' missinfo O' missinterpret bout somethin'...O' situation..

me..?

need someone 2 guide me.. but, not only scare of missinterpretation, but...perhaps..me wrong on doing somethin'...?ker..?

ermm...i dont know la...

but, still i admit...i do luv everyOne around me..even am complainin' a bit..

wateva it is... me...?

is waitin' & reachin' 4 d luV of myOther half..? ade ker...?

(based on true story, hapenD within 'mE' territory)

p.s. to my family, we're apart, i do can live without ya All...but, perhaps, i can't live without "myLife' ...

With The Honorable Heart

Thank you for being myfren & being there when i need u, also 4 d care....(mcm daun yg hijau..btol ka....?)...

frenship is like a petal of flowers, u can pick d petals til there r none left, but nobody really knows, wat will hapen next..but d hapiness is stil there...rite.

♥ can make you happy but often it hurts, but ♥ is only special when you give it to whom it's worth & its only hapen to d chosen... = ) (but yet everyone has own ♥ & hope in heart though )

in someone dreams i guess, 'I'll call u and tell u I miss u & tell u, u r d point of my day & life recently..' & my face will get flushed & my throat will choke up, speechless when u tell me that u feel d same....pray it won't hapen to my dearie fren.

at least i was born again when i knew u..& i stil wait 4 d nextday 2 come..tq.

Tak Tercapai Akalku (Kerna kamu)

Jumaat...

Esok keje, half day...sy tak kisah, keje yg banyak lekakan sy dr memikirkan yg tidak²...
dan keje yg mendekatkan sy kepadaNya...

Masih terngiang lagi, ape yg sy dgr dr sumber yg amat buleh sy percayai...
kenapa 'hangpa' sanggup sebar crite

Balik Beraya.. (omong kosong aja nih)

Salam.....

Semlm sy & syg hantar adik ke KLIA...yela, depa nk balek kpg braya...
Tp xtau plak nama derang takda dlm list nk terbang heh...adoyai..gelabah gak masing²..
lgla wife die...tambah plak luggages ade 15 kotak...huh

anyway, everything settled then...syg sy bese la...part mcm tu, die paling caring...
ikut adik uruskan pe yg patot..yela adik jenis lembut..mane tau org p bully die kat kaunter..

alhamdulillah depa terbang gak mlm tu...

hmm...tggal la sy sorg kat sini..braya sorg mcm bese le...

anyway, ade gak berita yg mengejutkan sy mlm tu..dr sumber yg amat buleh dipercayai...
hmm...benda yg sy pna tercari² sapa yg buat cita...
last² sy dpt tau gak...OMG Tuhan je tau..ape sy rase...

hmm...tp ape pon sume tu ade hikmah...& am much² more careful...heh..

Hari ke-12 Ramadhan 2010

Salam....

Hari ni saya duduk umah jer...mlm td sbok update blog..editing since some of the features missing & error here & there...

At the same time, saya terfkir plak..masalah economy neg nih...
huh, mcm mane duit saya tba2 xcukup bln nih...lg ade 1week utk gaji..itu pon belom confirm lg bila cheque gaji dapat...& tunggu clear lg..bru dpt duit...

Adoh,..pening gak..hmm...
Itula kdg2 org merungut betapa susah nye takde family...(tp kalo ade pon family tggal sama, buleh confirm ke derang dpt tolong...kan... fikir mcm tu plak...hehehe)

Anyway, saya dh xde idea..that's y saya jot down kat cni...
Nak ngadu ngn sape ntah...lgpon nanti org heran plak naper gaji saya xckp...
gadjet yg aku guna pon bese2 jer...bkn luxury...
org lain gaji bese2 pon guna mcm yg luxury kan...buleh plak enjoy sane sini...

heh, itu yg saya heran tu..mane ntah saya spend duit tu...ayo.... :(

wokeyla...perut pon xdpt nk terima ape saya mkn ni, (tgh buka pose ngn magee gureng depan laptop)...rase nk terkeluar je...

Nak solat jap...mlm nanti sayang ajak saya tgk bola kat mamak...
ntah jd tak...no $$$...waaaa......

Salam...

:))

.. Aku Tak Suka Rasa Ini ..

Salam...

HMM....fuhh....astaghfirullah...

Tak suka nya... I hate this feeling...
Just bcuz of..his hp is with me tonite...I can't sleep...
Its remind me...'trauma' tol la...mongok tol la ku nih...
Eh, knaper perlu ade org ke-3 dlm tiap hubungan..
+ knaper aku msh xdpt forget all the weird + worst memory of mine (but beautiful memory of them)...

Feel like...ahh..im gonna cry...
hmm...aku tak fhm..aku dh buang jauh² sume tu...
Aku tau..perhaps, they still need each other...notin I can do for myself..
keep stress-out and 'trauma' mcm nih...

Yela, sape suh g ngk depa dating dulu..
lgpon, aku org yg last tau psl hbgn tu..even dh lama close with him...
Sometimes, nak slhkan org ke-3 pon, tak boleh...cuz, dia takkan sambut hbgn without offer,...and me myself fr sure..too much, and bad girl to him..either..

ahh...aku syg bangat sih, sama kamu..
but, why those days..happened..
yes, its happened fr reasons...
but...

OMG.., knaper aku nih...
hmm...apa dosa aku smpai aku dpt jln hidup mcm nih...
aku tak pnah amik org punya partner..even pnah undur diri dgn kwn sendiri..
+ reject laki org...

benar kata org tua...
sekali kita buat prinsip..+ salu advice member²...
one day,...kita sendiri akan d uji...
tapi...bg aku, dia terlalu baik..untuk d uji..++..masuk dlm kisah aku..

aku harap..Tuhan ampunkan dosa aku..
aku teringin hidup hepy mcm dulu...
lupakan everything...even her face...+ the road of them...

syg aku jgk pnah ckp...
antara 1 relationship..only two persons itu je yg tau hbgn itu...
cuma aku terkilan ckit...mcm mane dia boleh kata...
aku x giv and take dgn syg aku masa tu...
she even doesn't know..wat hav i done with him..

kata org bercinta..:
'..ur all mylife...and will do wateva u wanted me to do...'
' it's ok..sometimes we make mistake...'

kata org bercouple..:
'..tgkla..kalau ada jodoh...,lgpon...semua tu atas takdir Tuhan..'
'..melayu mudah lemah...lupa..., tiap kesilapan...takkan tak study...'

kata syg aku....:
'..wateva it is...kita usaha ape yg mampu...'

p.s.: aku pon xtau..ape point aku jot down benda2 nih...tp, yg aku tau...im not hepy now..sleeping with his HP in myroom.... :(

.: Tasbih Sebelum Subuh :.

Salam...

On holiday fr a week...fuhh...
rasa males + tired yg xtau dtg dr maner plak nih...hehehe..
yela...d whole week sukat jln with syg...ade jer activity nk d buat..hmm... :) tq so much, syg...
(rasa bahagia + luvly pon ada...acah jer...)

.:Sebelum Subuh II:.

Salam...

ahernye..kuat jgk aku nak guna laptop nih..
dgn keinginan tinggi..& cuz of trauma...aku try not to use his laptop..
yela...jumpa mcm2...kalo silap haribulan...

aku terlalu byk mengeluh since da tue2 nih...
tak baik betul..

yang aku nk jot down ari nih sebenarnyer...

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masih sanggup berjalan
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dengarkan aku ku merindukanmu..

p.s.: kenapa bila kita 120% sayangkan someone, there's a risk waiting 4 us..?